I just crawled out of this little boy's bed. Is 7 years old still considered little? I hope so. We both still fit in his twin sized bed. I have never been known to spend time with my children once they are asleep. It has always been my alone time with hubby. "Get those kids in bed already" I often thought and even said aloud. But I find myself as they are getting older, crawling into their bed and cuddling with them and talking to them AFTER they have fallen asleep. Afraid that soon, they will be too big. Grown and gone. It sends my heart beating fast and makes me feel like I don't have much time. It scares me.
Tonight when I crawled into Blake's bed I told him how happy I was that he was swimming like a fish. Then I kissed his soft little cheek and squeezed him. He squirmed a little, but did not wake. I then went on to tell him that I loved how nice he was to Little Luke today while swimming. And how I love when he and Kaia get along and I can watch them play happily together. Then I asked him to be nicer to her. I lay there and cuddled some more. Kissing his sweet little cheeks. I dread the day those will be rough like his daddies with little hair stubble on them. Oh...I can't even let myself think about those days in the future. Instead I need to hold on to that little boy with big blue eyes that fills my heart so heavy......full of love.
Why didn't we have two more kids five years ago? A question that will haunt me forever. Even though I know the answer. Crawling into my kids' beds seem to help.
I so get this!!!
ReplyDeleteAfter being away from my little ones for a few days I let them both sleep with me last night... I jsut couldn't get enough of them!
How strange. I have started crawling into T.O.'s bed in the mornings, before he is awake. Sometimes O.J. toddles in after me, trying to climb up, but I get to snuggle T.O. while he sleeps. Soon, it'll be O.J. I do that to. And please don't mention having another baby....I can't go there mentally. I don't think I can. Can I? No. No no no.
ReplyDeleteMy Ryan still lets us tuck him in. I squeeze and ask him if he's still my little peanut. He always answers "yes mommy". I see many of the other 12 yr olds making the transformation into teenager. I'm hoping mine will hold out a bit longer.
ReplyDeleteMy Ryan still lets us tuck him in. I squeeze and ask him if he's still my little peanut. He always answers "yes mommy". I see many of the other 12 yr olds making the transformation into teenager. I'm hoping mine will hold out a bit longer.
ReplyDeletehe was so good to little Luke. I have grandmothers tell me all the time that I need to cherish this time because they'll soon be grown. :( I wish they'd stay babies forever. except maybe potty trained and sleeping through the night. :)
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