Dear Diary,

It is 1:00 am as I write this. I have been up sewing aprons since 3:30 pm yesterday. I got an order from a crazy bunch of ladies who are hosting their school's fundraising auction. They needed 8 aprons total. 7 purchased and I threw one in to be auctioned off. I am also still needing to make aprons for our local grocery store, Vallergas. The buyer there wants to highlight me as a local artist and place some of my aprons in the store. I was thrilled at the news!

Kaia came home from school sick again today. She is having all kinds of crazy symptoms. Headaches one day, stomach pain the next and even some tightening chest pains that cause her shortness of breath. We have been to the doctor for the chest pain, but I think the headaches and stomach pain (cramping) is maybe hormonal related. I'm not sure I am going to be able to take it. Her attitude and moodiness sometimes drive me to do crazy things. Like call her a bad name. I felt horrible afterwards and had to go repent. I was at my wits end and she cried. I guess I am not that great of a mother after all. She had to school me. She came to me and told me that even though she is getting older, I could still call her a BRAT. I apologized over and over again. I actually couldn't believe I had really called her a bad name. But desperate times call for desperate measures. I will surely never be that desperate again. Although I think the shock value of it worked.

Blake's "I'd rather be home ALL DAY LONG in my bed doing nothing rather than going to school" attitude is also driving me crazy. He stayed home on Monday (not sick) and stayed in his room, doing nothing, including no blankie and no thumb sucking from 8:00 am until 4:30 pm (cuz no blankie was available there was no thumb sucking....I yanked that out of his room as a last resort to try to get him to decide to go to school). I did feed him breakfast, lunch and a snack in his room. He spilt the english muffin with butter all over his comforter...which means more work for me, but hey...he stayed in his room all day. Boy it sure was a quiet day and no back and forth to the school. But c'mon.....choosing to stay in bed all day doing nothing. That was what he chose. I did give him multiple threats....trust me. Dave told me to make him go to school. I said, "At what point do I make him go to school and in doing so need to use physical force that would be considered abuse?!" I swear I consider home schooling at least once a week.

Well....I am staring at dishes that still need to be done. And there is laundry that needs to be switched. The jackets are still on the couch that need to go into the trailer. And also food that needs to be loaded in the fridge in the trailer. Dave and my dad, are leaving to go camping this afternoon and we are meeting him there on Friday afternoon. It really is a work weekend for them and for us. We are going to clean up the girls' camp that will be used by our church this summer. I need to get my house picked up for Marissa who is coming today also to clean my house (I know....pick up the house for the house cleaner to come....but we as women do it!) My table is covered in fabric and needles and sewing notions, and I am heading to San Francisco this morning at 8:30 am with a friend to explore the San Francisco Gift Center and Jewelry Mart. We will be back at 3:00pm in time to pick up kids from school and then I have the 8 -11 year old girls from church coming over to my house for an activity from 3:30 - 4:30. Kaia has piano at 5:30 pm. And the thought of all makes me think I will be exhausted by 6:00 pm!

Next time I start my post with "Dear Diary"....it should be a warning of a rant fest. Wanna join in?

Oh and P.S.....I might add that I am surprised at how many courteous shopping cart people we have in bloggy land. I am impressed! I am a "hooker" myself! Oh....go have fun with that statement....I'm too tired to care!